Field note · May 2026
I will no longer financially struggle.
On the sacred decision I made before any other transformation in my life could happen. In the laundromat on Sunset and Wilton, I daydreamed about owning my own washing machine.
A memoir · Vonetta Rain
★ Winner · 2025 Best Book Awards
The Book
A memoir
This is the story of what happened when I followed the call. A childhood I survived. A career I built and undid. A jungle that recognized me before I recognized myself. A teacher who arrived in a dream. A grandmother who came in serpent form.
It is not a how-to. It is a record of how a woman finds her way home through territory that has no map — and discovers, in the finding, that the map was always within her.
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Boston
Wakefield, Massachusetts. A child of desegregation. The first declaration: this cannot be all there is.
Kenya
Cornell anthropology, field research in Nairobi and Kibera. Thousands of zebra and giraffe migrating across the plain — and the moment the world stops being theoretical.
The Collapse
An Emmy-winning career, a marriage, an identity. Each undone to make room for what is true.
The Call
Yogananda appears twice in dreams. The Ganges. The baptism. The first plant medicine. The map begins to draw itself.
The Jungle
Joachim. The Amazon. Grandmother Serpent. Ancestral bleeding. A directive: create circles of twelve.
Ireland
A 40th birthday at the Poulnabrone Dolmen. The first facilitation. You'll be the best shaman on the planet.
The Return
Inverness, California. The Wild & Holy Women circles. Australia, Chicago, New York. The teaching expanding outward.
The Dawn
Rafael, the sound healer. Mentor and lost friend. A spirit that returns to comfort. The work that continues through her.
An interlude
What this path opened in me, more than anything,
was the simple permission — to play, to experience joy,
to the grace of being moved.
— move the feather. make a mark. —
From readers around the world
Working with Vonetta has been nothing short of a revelation. A stunning memoir. She is a veritable gift of light.
Dr. Rachel Pearl, MD · Emergency Physician, Cedars-Sinai
It's a piece of art. Vonetta is a true visionary.
Miriam Brown · Psychologist
Such a great book. Every time I had put it down, I could not wait to get back into it. So beautifully written. So relatable. She had me laughing and crying.
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I've witnessed Vonetta change thousands of lives, including mine. Her ancient wisdom and captivating stories have finally made it to print.
Heather Brand · Founder + CEO, Shloak
Vonetta's mentorship gave me my life back. Her story is a powerful reminder of how we can remember our joy and passions — even in the most stuck places.
Dr. Nakia Gordon, PhD · Behavioral Neuroscience
The Shaman's Apprentice is so much more than a memoir — it's a transmission. Her storytelling is magnetic. A must-read for anyone longing to remember who they are beneath the noise of the world.
Dana D. Frost · Verified Purchase
A beautiful memoir that traces Vonetta Rain's extraordinary spiritual awakening from childhood to her calling as a healer. The writing flows effortlessly, making this an engaging page-turner that's genuinely hard to put down. I didn't want it to end.
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Such a beautifully told story of a life lived with faith, curiosity, courage and intention. Witnessing Vonetta's path to service through the fibers of these pages was a literary delight.
Tamika B. · Verified Purchase
I couldn't put this book down. Vonetta is such an incredible storyteller. A must-read for anyone seeking to heal or even just curious about what is possible.
Erin Ferrare · Amazon Reviewer
I devoured it. A beautiful story of transformation and discovery. I loved the curiosity, the storytelling, and the humor. Looking forward to a sequel.
JV · Amazon Reviewer
I loved going on the journey of this woman who inspired me to have courage and believe in oneself. I could feel her joy and pain, and was grateful for all it enabled her to pass on to us.
Louise Baranowski · Amazon Reviewer
A page-turner from the first chapter. Vonetta's writing is honest, lyrical, and brave — a rare combination. I will be thinking about this book for a long time.
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Field Notes
Fragments of the memoir. Small openings into the larger map.
Field note · May 2026
On the sacred decision I made before any other transformation in my life could happen. In the laundromat on Sunset and Wilton, I daydreamed about owning my own washing machine.
Field note · Mar 2026
We've been preparing for this for a long time. Before the language. Before the platforms. Before awakening became something you could package and sell.
Field note · Mar 2026
A part of me also wants to escape them. I yearn for simplicity. I long for the days when I intentionally chose to leave my cellphone behind.
Field note · Mar 2026
I was guiding a plant medicine ceremony. Not in some distant jungle or retreat center, but in a penthouse villa at a private members' club overlooking the city.
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